Yesterday was an interesting day for my Facebook friends.
Status Update 1: I think I’d better go back to bed and try again tomorrow.
Status Update 2: Oh, and also? Women suck. I am, apparently, in the angry phase. Ugh. Did I say women suck? No? Well, then … women suck. /rant.
Status Update 3: I am now officially done with my Full Femme Fit. You can all breathe a sigh of relief now.
On Twitter it was worse, but I won’t share all of *those*. I have about 6-freaking-thousand tweets (yes, seriously) so clearly I’m chatty.
And know what? Women sorta do suck. Except when they don’t.
My friends? My friends, almost all of whom are women, are awesome.
One friend, L, sent me a few great text messages post-dumping. Mostly to cheer me up & tell me SHH did not deserve me. Which is fully true, of course.
A reasonably new pal, J, called me literally seconds after I’d had a not-great moment and talked to me, e-introducing me to a friend of hers. It was absolutely perfect timing.
Last night, a woman I have been friends with for 15 years, but haven’t really talked to for about a year, sent me a text message that made me laugh. She wrote “I’m a total whore. I can’t believe it’s been so long since we talked. I sent you an email explaining. I love u!” It was the “I’m a total whore” part that cracked me up.
Then today, I was looking at text messages from my BFF. She sent me all the expected sweet friend sentiments. I was clearly, clearly bitter. She wrote me a looonnnggg text about “You’re wonderful, FFG, and SHH has lots going on & blah blah blah.” My response: “Yeah. + she sucks.” For whatever reason, when I read that today, it cracked me up.
I should amend the Women Suck FB status update. “That woman sucks.” Except, the fact is, she doesn’t. She’s a lot of things: funny, smart, out of control, a pain in the ass (to say the least), a wildass and in love with someone else. That doesn’t mean she sucks. It just means she isn’t the woman for me.
So, if I’m fully honest, here’s what I should say: “Well, things got away from me. I had stronger emotions than I was expecting and *that* wigged me out. Then, SHH wanted to break up with me which wasn’t fun. I had stronger emotions about THAT than I was expecting, which also wigged me out. Then, I got stuck in it for a minute. But now I’m better.”
And, know what? I am.
The Femme Fairy Godmother is the alterego of a Michigan femme who loves to give (mostly unsolicited) advice to everyone regardless of sexual orientation. Also, the FFG has an overwhelming urge to mother everyone. And by mother I mean tell you how to live your life.
Akki
December 17th, 2009 at 3:30 am
Sorry she was not for you and grateful that you could feel something profound for someone. The good news, we’re alive when we’re either in joy or in pain. And you can get quite alive when things hurt. Women, men, Oregon rain, sometimes they and it all sucks. Tonight, however, the music and fireplace are good. That you exist in the world, also good. You’re gifts are on their way.
lesbo
December 17th, 2009 at 3:42 am
i’m glad you’re feeling a bit better.
SHH doesn’t deserve you. you deserve someone to love you fully. while i wish SHH the best, i wish you even better.
now, get your butt to portland so we can go on some butch hunts and find you the perfect, tall, hilarious, smart, charming one you want/deserve.
but Akki is right: sometimes(often) oregon rain SUCKS.
Sweetspiced
December 17th, 2009 at 12:09 pm
I’m new in the circle so I may not know you well but I do know one thing – out there is a VERY lucky woman just waiting for you to come into her life. And you’ve surrounded yourself with a great circle of friends – someone, somewhere knows that woman and the waiting is a pain in the ass, but you’ll get there. You deserve the best. *hugs*
Jude
December 17th, 2009 at 12:29 pm
There is no doubt in my mind that you are one fantastic woman and beautiful to boot. I’m glad you’re feeling better and the padded walls have been taken down.
70’s today in So.Cal. Just saying.
Jilliebean
December 17th, 2009 at 5:44 pm
I’m glad you are feeling better!
dragon
December 17th, 2009 at 7:04 pm
Hang in there. You will find someone special for you that will make you really happy
G
December 17th, 2009 at 11:49 pm
I’m happy to support by sharing some really, really fantastic vocabulary words with you.
I’ve always loved the word “frenetic,” but the word “crisp”? Not so much. It feels weird to say, like “cris-puh.”
ang
December 18th, 2009 at 1:59 am
Sorry… Keep your chin up
Trinity2
December 18th, 2009 at 8:43 pm
Hang in there!
Akki
December 19th, 2009 at 6:43 pm
Law of Attraction: that which we focus on grows or it’s what we attract to ourselves. I’m focused on my muscles now so that they grow. Seems like when I focused on fat, it grew. So, maybe focus on your list and you will attract her to you. You better not visit Portland without seeing me